One Week.

I feel like this is an important day, and that i should maybe write something important on my blog. I dont really have anything that important to say, other than i leave in one week today.
I guess im kind of lonely here in abbotsford right now. And right as im about to go on this new journey I strangely enough really miss highschool. I miss what it meant.


Somewhere between the procrastination and the homework and the friendships, somewhere between the phonecalls to old friends and the "i miss yous" and the "i love yous" and the "what are you doing tonights". Somewhere between all the changing and growing. Somewhere between the classes and the studying for tests and the pretending to study for tests and the downright not studying for tests. I forgot--
I forgot what highschool is all about, i forgot what it meant to cry, i forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy. I forgot that you just cant forget the past in fear of the future. I learned that i can LOVE deeply. I learned that it's okay to mess up, and it's okay to feel like crap. I learned that it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day. I learned that sometimes the things you want the most you just cant have. I learned that the greatest thing about highschool isnt the parties, it's the friendships. I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about. I learned that letters from friends are something that you will treasure forever. I learned that without the people you went to highschool with, the people who you grew up with, have a major impact on who you are today, who i am now.

Im ready for the next step in my life and I dont know if i want to go back to highschool. But today i miss it.

maybe beause i'm scared.